Random Posting

Ok all two blogs in two days! wow, I guess I am making up for lost time this past week.
I hope this blog finds you all all well once again. I figure I would just be posting a random blog about random sorts of things.
As I sit here I have some thouhgts I have been thinking about. The first one being how much am I willing to die to myself to be able to truely be a lfe changer?
maybe someday I will upload a poem I wrote about dying to myself, anyways, I wish I could die to myself fully and truely be a "missionery" I wish I could be witnessing day in and day out. I wonder often what is considered to my mission field and am I truely acting as a missionery? what defines a Missionery? am I truely serving God or should I be doing more? how much of an effort am I making? anywasy, I guess the point I am trying to make is, I am feeling dscourged by lack of fruits showing in my time here maybe I need to just be patient and let it grow in time. Anyways, trhis is a random posting and just a bunch of words some might never want to read. I am just ranting,My second thought is the thought of long term work in Central America region, I am feeling more called and more confident of my work here, I feel as if the possibilty of being here in the region could be very real. No direct dissions as I need to finish Highschool, anyways, this is not a for sure thing and it could dramticaly change in the next years, but anyways I am feeling at peace me being hee for only 2 more months. I want to come back to Honduras to vist and see all my friends again. This post is so random and I am homesick and slightly bored.
God is faithful though and maybe someday I will be back to this region, I really feel this is where I am called. My time here is only 4 mnths I need to take advantage time of this time and do my best effort!
time to close this post
God bless,
Josiah.