Long time, no post!

Well I guess It's long past time for another blog post!

These past few weeks have been a hard, but good past few weeks. I've been really doing a lot of praying and heart checking. I've also had to fight a few battles spiritually,
but God is my defender.
I can't explain the things going on. but I have been really starting to realize how wicked our hearts are.
I was talking to a fellow believer and he said that it's not wrong to discover how wicked we are, it's what we do with that after the holy spirit has convicted us that matters.
I have felt like I'm growing a lot lately, having to do more things i have not wanted to do. Like go to people and apologize even if I was not in the wrong. and if I was, then that was even harder.
I'm also learning to let go, and when I say let go I really mean let go.
I was praying recently about something I was needing to let go of, and I kept telling God "Lord, help me to let go of_______"'
Finally the Lord told me "Josiah, quit asking for help, and just let go. you keep bringing it back"
It hit home, cause when we let go. We are not suppose to keep bringing up and asking for help to let go cause we have not fully let go then.
Letting go is when the situation comes up and we don't even notice cause were resting in God.
Sometimes it's hard to let go of the pain, and it's even harder when we do but the other side does not.
But in the end God will honor that.