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Wow, I know, I know. It's been awhile since I've posted.
but I've been running hard and really busy lately. I almost feel to the point of just quitting it all! Lately I've been discouraged and overwhelmed.
I don't see how God can bring me through this time of testing emotionally,physically, etc. Someday I just want to quit!
but I know my God is greater, my God is stronger.
And in the storms, in the desert place is when I really know him. my problems are huge when I look at what the Lord is NOT doing rather then at what the Lord IS doing.
I told a pastor that on Monday this past week, not surprising that the Lord would take those very words he gave me to share and test me with them. then came Tuesday, that's when it all began. I can't explain it, but I was being tested and am being tested.
I look around and see a battle brewing. I see something i don't know what moving through the ministry. and causing a ripple effect, I've never felt so far away.
I think of David and how he was surrounded by people but still felt alone.
the lord is my shepherd and I know he hears my voice, sometimes a sheep must be alone so that way he may be tested to see if he genuinely a sheep.
I never though I'd be at where I am now. but the Lord knows, and i gotta keep that focus. I'm being broken and tested, it's hard but good.
I wish I had something encouraging to say, but I just need to refocus my thoughts on Christ. Truly, he hears my call!
His plan for you is so much broader than you think! All you are doing now in the name of Christ is not in vain. Don't doubt that you're being prepped (now) for whatever it is that God has for you in the future. Any task no matter how regular or mundane is just a building block for your sanctification and preparation for His good work. Dont be surprised if you look back one day and realize that all the pain or difficulty was being used to make you more ready to handle other things. "Finally be strong in the strength of the Lord and in the Power of His might."
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Thanks for the comment, I just now discovered it. It means a lot to me that you even read this post.
ReplyDeletePraying for you redhero.